D-Day
(Meaning to us, the day on which an important operation is to begin or a change to take effect)
Today I went in for surgery to deal with my 2nd baby loss.
It's been a extremely emotional day.
I decided to look at my baby, this time baby was not fully formed as it was a very early miscarriage, confirmed at 9 weeks 4days. I'm sure I saw the eyes. I decided not to take a
photo, but I feel a great sense of gratitude for the staff for allowing me to look, and in detail too. I felt I owned it to my unborn child who will never experience life.
photo, but I feel a great sense of gratitude for the staff for allowing me to look, and in detail too. I felt I owned it to my unborn child who will never experience life.
I do not regret doing this, in fact I'm glad I did. All I got to do now is to find out if my wish to get my baby buried with my first born who we lost a lot further on in our pregnancy prior to this to Pprom, as I don't feel comfortable with having part of me, being cremated and buried in a different town to where my first born is. I'm hoping out of this nightmare this is possible, even though baby was too small & beautiful for earth.
The staff at the hospital were amazing, and my one big wish is that we have more staff like this, and in the future to give the same treatment to our Pprom mums losses regardless of gestation as I received today 14.09.2015.
My second wish is for us to ensure more consistent care is given to our Pprom mums regardless of decisions, choices or should I say wishes.
I promised my first born Sinead all those years who. that I would make a difference, and I don't care if it takes me a lifetime to raise the 30k for the stem patch project with our team, and also a further 5k so we can become a charity and to produce Pprom leaflets, posters, banners.
I have to say it has been the third worst day of my year for 2015, but I pray that in the future that I'm blessed again soon, and I am also praying that this time next year, I'm sharing a coffee morning with a group of rainbow babies with their brave Pprom mummies.
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I also wanted to say a big thank you to Bryan who allowed us on Thursday this week, to do a presentation in front of student midwives, midwives & consultants. I am so glad I said yes.
Maybe it was a bit crazy for me to do while dealing with my miscarriage, but I am so passionate about this subject, I want everyone to know about Pprom.
Also big thank you to Toni for driving and doing this presentation with me, as it was extremely difficult as I knew I was about to miscarry, I also like to thank Toni for sharing her special story In memory of Isabelle. I know this was a big thing for you, and I'm so proud of you for being able to do this.
Our team will be doing more presentations in the future and also looking at new ways to diagnose Pprom, we will tell you more later this week after I have recovered from this operation, it may take more time to recover from my loss.
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In memory of all our babies gone too soon to Pprom, and for all our mums on bed rest, and for all our PPROM miracle babies fighting for their lives, and not forgetting our amazing PPROM dads & mums.
I so hope, me and the team can make you proud.
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All I ask is for you to carry on sharing your stories, regardless of your outcomes.
Each story means a lot to our team.
All you need to do is post to our PPROM pages.
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Thank you to my amazing partner too, who has been there for me every step of the way
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Thank you to my amazing partner too, who has been there for me every step of the way
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Lastly a big Thank you for all our supporters for your Support and for helping us raise Pprom awareness and funds for Pprom in pregnancy and beyond.
Together we can make a massive difference.
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Please light a candle this weekend for all our angels gone too soon.
For all that are reading our blog, it would make my rubbish year, into a good one despite this loss, If you can follow our Thunderclap, as if we can save one babies life to PPROM, it will make our teams losses not in vain!
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